Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Not Feeling Great

You all know that for the past couple of weeks, I have been trying to eat mostly Raw. Things have been going well, I have experienced MUCH less bloating, I have a little more energy, and the food is really good. I have felt like I have been losing weight, probably due to lack of bloating, and I've been in a really good mood about it. (Not to mention that I really like knowing that I'm being healthier in my diet, getting all those greens with my smoothies and other fruits and veggies all day.) I FEEL better, but when I stepped on the scale this morning, I weigh actually 5 pounds MORE. This is such non-exciting news. Now I am 20 pounds away from my goal weight instead of 15. I'm so confused, because I feel better, I think I look better without my GIANT swollen bloated stomach, but I still managed to GAIN weight? WTF??? I know its just a number on the scale, I know that it matters more how I feel, but it's still discouraging. And I also know that I don't get the exercise that I should, so I bet that would make a difference too. Its really hard to start going to the gym when its been so long. I want to nap instead. Right now I am exhausted and for really no reason, because I got a good night's sleep last night. And all I can think about is taking a nap when I get home. Maybe its the weather. Who knows. If its not raining, I will try to take the dog for a walk later. I need to start somewhere. I'm tired of carrying around this extra weight that I have had for a few years now. UGH.

I will try to cheer up and maybe come back later with something less depressing.


Will Burke said...

Could the two jobs be wearing you out? Or frustration with flirty old bastards?

Anonymous said...

Hmm I'm sorry Rachel :( That's a bummer. I'll pray that your scale was just being hormonal ;) *hugs*

Rachel said...

Thanks guys :) Will, I haven't even been at Target as much lately because they cut hours, but you are right about dirty old men. (shudder..)

Yes Kristy, hormonal.. that's what I'm going to call it. Its the scale's fault!